the obessive mode

we all have our faults... some faults we are aware of while we remain blind to the others until someone points it out... and then there are those faults that you wonder if they are really wrong or just part of personality... those things that make you who you are... i don't know- maybe its how we look at it or who we ask...

i am fully aware of certain elliaesque behavior... stuff that can drive even myself mad! i have a mode- the obsessive mode... it's not a good one, but then again, the house does get clean! and i try not to get mad at anyone around me and just focus my obsessiveness (which turns to frustration then back to obsession) on the task at hand... the things in disarray... i have these days a lot but sometimes it's worse... oh, are you wondering  if "this greenbean baby is crazy"? i assure you i am not... just unique (hah! a good excuse!) lemme explain how it starts...

i look around and my eyes fall on something in the living room... like my books- they aren't organized right... some are lying in piles above the shelf while others are sticking out too much... so i take them all off the shelf and fix them... as i am doing so, one of my cats brush up  on me and i notice hairs on my clothes... not only am i reminded to do laundry but now i must brush the cats ...  hairs are flying everywhere so i have to vacuum... again, a normal job but it becomes a dire emergency to vacuum right away... i go through the entire house, even vacuuming walls and my couch... i notice a spot on the couch so i find myself cleaning it... i put the cloth back in the bathroom (the one used to clean the spot) and so suddenly i figure, "what the heck"  and i start to clean the bathroom... i was in there, so why not do it right away?

clothes are being done in the process as well as caring for diego... a pot of coffee is done brewing so i grab a cup from the pantry and notice how the kitchen linen is too messy... it gets me upset so i go to fix it right away... forget the cup, time to fold again! it reminds me that the linen closet in the outer hallway needs to get fixed too... so now i am separating and reorganizing the entire closet (well, i admit, i've neglected it)... curtains with the curtains... blankets folded right... laundry is near done and so its time to fix the clothes in our bedroom... ramel's clothes are always a pile of mess so by now, i try not to let it irritate me... but now i am going through all the drawers and fixing his clothes and mine... tank tops with the tank tops... blue shirts with the blue... buttoned up shirts in a pile to go upstairs in ramel's studio closet (where more messy clothes await me)... but first i will tackle diego's clothes... his drawers are a tad too messy from all the searching for his outfits... then it's his toys i am organizing toys by type and size.... cars go in the tiny bin... action figures go in one basket... balls go in another... a new sheet in his crib... and then cleaning the crib rails from his tendency to bite them when he is crying...

i try to get my cup of coffee now but as i reach for a spoon, the drawers could use a fixing up too... so again, my coffee is dismissed and all the cupboards are being reorganized...  the top of our kitchen cabinet has too much stuff on top- ramel's magazines and other things he hides... so i move them up to the attic, into his studio... is that dust on the floor? the floor should be vacuumed but nah, i will wait until tomorrow this time! still have to fix his clothes again... and organize a few of my things as well... there are a few phone calls made in between to prevent me from getting too anxious over all this... i see more things that have to be done... like mopping the basement and getting those cobwebs- but if i wasn't so scared of bugs, i would have been down there doing that during diego's nap... instead i go online and talk to my mom on the phone... i try to relax with my cup of coffee finally.... but would you believe i hear a crash in the kitchen? i kid you not, my curtain rod falls off AGAIN so i hammer another nail in it and get the curtains back up so no one can see us...

like i said, i know this mode of mine is not normal... it can get obsessive... i mean, some days i feel i am nowhere as clean as my mom- although she assures me i am! if i am always cleaning then doesn't that mean i must be messy/dirty too?! hah, this thinking- this obsessiveness- is like an anorexic who says i am not skinny enough! only in my case, i am saying "this house isn't clean enough".... but really, no one loses, right! diego is happily running around and still getting attention- or watching a cartoon... ramel comes home to a clean house (hey, i used to call him on his cell to tell him how messy his studio or closet was- i  no longer do that-  i got better, right?!)... and after all this, i can freely work on art after 10pm knowing that the house is clean...

wait, maybe i should organize my papers again by color, pattern, and size....

Comments

[li li]

Haha Ellia, I know how you feel....I'm an impatient fellow too! Got to fix things right away and I hate messy room/area. Can't stand people touching my stuff without my permission and worse if they don't put stuff back into its original position - I will get super mad at them!!!! So I guess more or less we're in the same category. :D Now, now, go for your coffee before organizing your papers, you need a break!! ^o^

[gracia]

I love to straighten the books on the shelf too... there is something really pleasing about it.
Happy organising!
see you, gracia

[Nina]

:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) I just haaaaaaaaaaaaaad to do that Love MOM xxxx

[Joanne]

Oh My - I am so glad you finally had that cup of coffee. I do remember whilst pregnant with my first daughter I ironed all the muslin wraps! Four and a half years on I still have the urge but not the time - not sure which is worst! Happy Cleaning.

[jen]

Can you come to my house? I don't have the cleaning obession gene. Wish I did sometimes.

[thebizofknowledge]

I stumbled upon this site as I was in the process of doing some online research. That need to fix the thing you're staring at can lead one into a maze of stuff to clean and fix. You expressed it so well.

[Dre@...]

Oh my, I can't believe I finally found someone like me! Hahaha.