there are days when the brain can only think about bills and how they are piling up and which ones need paying first... it leaves this adult feeling overwhelmed and frustrated... and there are other days when the doctors declare your child hasn't gained weight in 3 months and has low iron and this makes a good mother wanna cry... after all, she thought the kid was growing well and strong but apparently her cooking isn't giving her son the pounds he apparently needs... to top it all off, there are days when a mother's body refuses to cooperate and needs to go to the doctor for medication... so to counteract these rough moments, this mother focuses on the good things in her life...
1. isabella can nearly turn over from her belly to her back....
2. the other day, diego told me he "had green" and pointed to his eyes... (yeah, this is truly a mother gushin' moment!)
3. isabella can't decide if she wants to suck two fingers on her left hand or her right hand... or if she wants her thumb instead... i think she is going for her thumb now! its quite cute to watch....
4. isabella loves her jumperoo already (pretty early, eh?!)
5. changing a diaper in dim lighting isn't a good idea... especially when you dont know your baby has a diaper rash and you use scented wipes on her tush... (ok, this doesn't make me happy to think about but its a good reminder to turn on the bright lights next time and to not eat so much brocoli while nursing)

6. i enjoy variety and it displays in all parts of my
life including the lullaby i sing to the kids... "if you want to
destroy my sweater..." by weezer or a bit of ace of base ... and an i love lucy song to cap the concerto....
7. a wild moment: ramel had a sketch of a boy's head... diego drew on it and it looked like he made two eyes and a mouth!! NO LIE!! i am not surprised he likes art, but its soooo neat to see him INTO it! (does that make sense?)
8. in 10 days, ramel and i will have been married for 4 years! i almost forgot our anniversary was coming up and i tend to forget which day we married on (the 17th or the 19th?!)
9. my mom has a jewelry box that plays the godfather song (this makes me chuckle)
10. my mom is oh-so-encouraging... we talk on the phone nearly everyday (and live under 20 minutes from eachother) we can fit about 10 different topics in one conversation.... haha...
11. having company around who love your kids so much is such a compliment! yeah, eric + karen and dan + rebecca really treat my kids so wonderfully!!!!
12. working on art is a great release... especially when there aren't any bugs buzzing about... it's another thing that makes me think "i may not get my kid to gain weight but i sure can make him smile and say "aw, that's nice mummy!"
13. a good cup of coffee and a calming atmosphere makes for a wonderful afternoon.... good enough to take a nap to
14. lastly, having wonderful blogging and flickr buddies can make any person's day.... i am truly grateful to know so many of you and i don't think i'd create half as much if i didn't know of this wonderful community!
Hang in there Ellia! You're a great mom with happy kids and they are lucky to have you. As are the rest of us who enjoy your talent!
Posted by: margaret | July 09, 2007 at 11:32 PM
I am sorry you are going through a rough patch Ellia. I am sure that things will sort themselves out for you. As you say, there are many good things in your life. Stay positive and keep your chin up. Sending you positive vibes from across the water :-)
Posted by: Simone | July 10, 2007 at 05:45 AM
Oh, I'm sorry. But you have great perspective in looking at the good. And it looks like you found a lot of good. Plus the fact that you really do have a beautiful family. :0)
Posted by: Robyn | July 10, 2007 at 09:05 AM
It's probably not much comfort but....things will get better. Mothers are their own worst critics. If your children and hubby are happy and healthy you've won the biggest part of the battle. Good luck to you.
Posted by: Gerry | July 10, 2007 at 09:36 AM
ahah just the title of this post make me burst out laughing... it remembers Bob Marley =P
anyway, good luck with everything Ellia, I really hope that every your problems get solved!!
xo,
Ester
Posted by: Ester | July 10, 2007 at 10:54 AM
You'll recover in no time, Ellia and I bet kiddie will be gaining weight soon.....hang in there!
Posted by: li li | July 10, 2007 at 11:10 AM
You'll have to always remember those kind of happy thoughts to hang in there, Elia!!
You had to go to the doctor... are you alright now?
Posted by: Metallyptica | July 10, 2007 at 03:41 PM
Hey Ellia, I've not been around much but just wanted to say you are doing a great job! Congratulations for your anniversary xx
Posted by: Lindsey | July 10, 2007 at 05:54 PM
Aww you have a positive outlook on life which is great! And your have so many more pretty items. I think its gorgeous. And an early Happy anniversary greeting from me =) xox
Posted by: Gracie | July 10, 2007 at 09:19 PM
wow...
i haven't been here in forever
(or anywhere blog-related for that matter)
and i cannot beleive how big isabella
is getting!
and diego is adorable as usual
:)
and i hope that you are feeling better
and don't be too hard on yourself..
it will all come in it's own time
Posted by: gkgirl | July 11, 2007 at 06:28 AM
So many of your "happy list" things are about your family which shows just what a good mom/wife/daughter your are!
My 17th (!) anniversary is on Saturday! It goes so fast, so enjoy!
Posted by: Diane Duda | July 11, 2007 at 08:06 AM
I love your happy list! It really shows how great a mom you are :-) Makes me think about my own 'happy list' too.
Posted by: KTtheKCbride | July 11, 2007 at 01:06 PM
Ellia, it happens to all of us, but everything always works out. So just keep your head up, and say "I can do this!" and then you will see everything will go back to normal once again. by the way what is up with that cookbook too cute. And when I saw that I laughed, because I wrote about making a cookbook myself! how funny is that.
Posted by: brenda | July 12, 2007 at 04:19 PM
Don't worry too much! The most difficult job in the world never came with an instruction manual anyway! ( at least mine didn't and on the 4th one, it is still trial and error:)...BTW...I decided to test the baby's unscented/aloe vera baby wipes on myself. MAN talk about a burn!!! I was surprised and just took the whole packet ran cold water over them and laid them back in the container. I purchased paper disposable washclothes instead and kept the wipes for the older kids.
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Posted by: Metallyptica | July 15, 2007 at 06:38 AM